i'm not too sure if i really want to do the cake counter though... it's so slack that i feel like i'm barely doing anything. unlike out on the floor, where there're always plates to clear, or food/drinks to send out, bills to collect/return. ionno.
the learning curve was steep the first couple of days, after that it all becomes a matter of practice. i'm just feeling a little perturbed by my change in attitude. i think it was a negative change. so i just gotta buck up and stop doing stupid things that i know i will regret. faizal tells me he doesn't understand why i have to keep pushing myself so hard and being so unforgiving of mistakes. i guess a large part of it is because i know i'm capable. and i know i can get results if i push myself hard enough, so why settle for less? the past couple of days i somehow started thinking that i didn't have to put in -that- much effort, so long as i was doing as much as what the other part-timers were. so i think i regressed, somewhat. but it left me feeling very uncomfortable about myself. so, here's my resolution for this job, and hopefully for every other job that is going to come my way: no more merely matching up to other people's standards - i will set my own, and live up to them. in other words, i will excel and surpass others if i have to.
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trolling wikipedia, and i found this:
"According to Kurt Goldstein's book The Organism: A Holistic Approach to Biology Derived from Pathological Data in Man, self-actualization is "the tendency to actualize, as much as possible, [the organism's] individual capacities" in the world. The tendency toward self-actualization is "the only drive by which the life of an organism is determined." Goldstein defined self-actualization as a driving life force that will ultimately lead to maximizing one's abilities and determine the path of one's life."fascinating. but for some reason, the above paragraph sounds a bit like academic bullshit to me. it's pretty much saying the same thing, three times over, rephrased each time. but the crux of it makes sense to me.
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