in the midst of the insanity, drifting through the fears, the insecurities and the nightmares, i found my reason and my peace. 

because "in a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality, i'd find you and i'd choose you". 

i chose you. i chose to be with you. no matter what you do, i will keep choosing you. i will always choose to be with you. what's the use of worrying about what you would choose? 

there's the tiny issue of my pride. but i need you more than i need my pride. 

i will work hard to make sure that i become the sort of person that you will choose, over and over and over again. a thousand times, a million times, through eternity. 

everything else - that broke me, that will continue to haunt me - is insignificant. 

everything else will pass.