those fears exist only because you both care. what's most important is that you're open to talking about those fears and working to alleviate them. it'll be a constant struggle. but it's worth the fight!

by the way, change isn't necessarily always bad. don't strive to maintain status quo; strive to change for the better.

one final thing: tumblr is bad for you, i insist. it enshrines beautiful moments for an eternity. but pictures are an instant in time, and words are said and forgotten. you gotta stop looking at beautiful moments in other people's lives, and start paying more attention to and keeping the rare ones in your own life close to your heart.

stop thinking that you're a terrible person! you have the most beautiful soul amongst all the people i know. and i know many people. so cheer upppp♥