i didn't even manage to give convincing smiles at the cake counter today. my heart is heavy. but i don't know why.

everything is feeling like a chore, especially people. i feel like there isn't enough of me to go around so i don't want to give anyone anything at all. i can't commit to so many people. it's tiring, and it's never enough for anyone.

can't seem to rid myself of that awful gnawing feeling that i'm doing something wrong. or a lot of things wrong. it's like i'm feeling guilty for so many things, half of which i don't even remember exactly what, and well, it's a terrible feeling.

basically, i am unhappy. and i don't know why.