gosh i'm such a bitch. i say the most horrid things but urgh i really think so. i think that makes me a horrible person but i also think everyone's secretly horrible as in they all harbour horrible thoughts but they just don't say them. so if everyone's horrible does that put us all on equal footing and then we can change the benchmark and so everyone's not horrible?
I DON'T CARE I WANT STRAIGHT AS FOR AS EVEN THOUGH I DON'T DESERVE THEM.
because i'm a showoff and overcompetitive. much as i try to pretend not to be (and it doesn't always work) I AM. but i will still continue to try to put up the appearance of being modest and humble and uncompetitive because it's how we're supposed to behave.
blah okay i should type out the bloody essay now